Sweet September

I just finished a super long day of computer training for my new position at NYP so my brain is running at 20% efficiency right now, but I am going to write anyways because I really want to the chronicle the last month while it is still fresh in my head! So I will start where I left off!

Leaving San Diego and the process of moving across the country went smoother than I anticipated. Rose's family was super sweet and let me stay with them for two weeks, they made me feel so welcome, and really just part of the family. I honestly can not imagine living 3000 miles away from everyone I love without the support and love from Rose and her family. She really did help make my SD special for me. I also had help from Sunny for the last weekend, which was nice, because my suitcase was no joke! But even with all the help, I am soooo done with moving. I have literally moved five times in the last two months, and I am over it. Packing everything up, unloading it, arranging it, packing the car up, remembering where I kept everything, living out of a suitcase. Lol even if my living situation absolutely sucked right now, someone couldn't pay me to move. It;s a lot to do, and it is a lot to do alone. As much as I like travelling, and all the opportunities it has afforded me, I am really craving some stability. Now I just need to decide where I want that stability, But I digress, leaving SD was really so sad (and fun). Saying goodbye both to the beautiful city and the wonderful people I met there brought tears to my eyes multiple times. Hell even while I am in NYC, I still miss it. To top things off, I had a really fun weekend before I left, Dinners with some awesome people, DRAKE!!!!, harry potter land...It was a perfect ending to my California stay. So perfect that it was even more difficult to leave!

But alas, I made it back to dirty jerz! The NYC hustle took up most of my time, trying to complete the requirements for NYP, checking in on my condo, finding an apartment, etc. Finding the apartment was def the most stressful, 3 month furnished leases are apparently next to impossible. Thankfully kartik needed a roommate and was willing to do short term so it worked out, and that was a HUGE stress taken off! So the week flew by, especially with my parent's party planning going on as well.

At the end of the week, I left to Morocco! Words can do this trip no justice. Chefchaoun, the dades valley, and the Sahara were absolutely breathtaking. The local berber people we met were fascinating as well, and really helped make the trip as special as it was. They live these nomadic lives, and use life and the people they met as their means of education. They do not travel with much, and really use the land, animals, and natural resources available to them to the fullest. They really reminded us of how little you need not only to survive, but to be happy. They had this very spiritual air to them, I truthfully cannot even describe it. Apart from meeting these wonderful peoples, our own group of 14 got along wonderfully. I was so pleased to see that everyone befriended each other openly, and everyone seemed to have an amazing time!! Some things I noted about Morocco, I did not realize how conservative of a country it actually is until you visit its non touristy cities of fez and rabat. Also, how much the french had an influence on the country. EVERYTHING is in and almost everyone speaks french, lol all the arabic we tried to learn prior was useless. Finally, ummm i think we all might be tagine'ed and cous cous'ed out for the rest of the year. Also, Air Maroc needs to work on their service in the air...I was not impressed with this airline company in the least. Nevertheless, overall Gate 1 killed it again!!! Our tour manager was excellent, the trip went without issue, everyone had a fabulous time, it was everything I hoped it to be and more! 

Coming home from Morocco meant straight hustle time. I got all my requirements ready to go, did as much prep as I could for moving, and then committed to helping my parents with the party. The party on friday went amazing! Everything happened on time, no major problems, the night went very smoothly. And seeing my parents get married again was so incredibly endearing...from my dad's baraat to the phera to their "first" dance it was all so beautiul and inspiring. The love they share for each other, and they way they have grown individually and together over the years reminds me of the kind of relationship I want for myself...filled with support, comprimise, respect, and love! They both looked amazing, and the smiles on their faces was priceless!! The rest of the weekend was nice too, the whole family stayed at our house, so it was both fun and exhausting! Overall, we could not have asked for a better weekend!

and now for New York!! Its day 3 and half of my move so lol this should come with a grain of salt, but so far its still pretty surreal!! I brought my first monthly metrocard! I used the bus and subway all alone for the first time. I must have walked atleast 20 miles in the last three days just exploring. I get to work at new york's biggest healthcare systems (I am going to save my judgement on work till i get to the clinical floor) so thats pretty cool too! Overall, the move is going well. It is cold and kinda gloomy, so I am missing Cali weather like crazy. Yesterday, I went to trader joe's in union square, and that was a mad house and people were so rude, lol i missed cali then too. And then every once in awhile I also miss someone and that makes me miss cali too, but other than that i am enjoying nyc and just taking it all in!!

Finally, and I hate to end on a heavy note, but my love life. My damn love life. I don't actually know what to make of the last two months, but from what I can take away, S wanted the best of our relationship, without any of the work. I used to think maybe he didn't even see me in a romantic light, maybe just as friends, but I am not even sure he sees me a friend. For someone who is so smart, I find it hard to believe he could be so socially dense. I don't want to beg someone to talk to me, they should want to do it. It is a simple as that. And for that reason, I am not chasing after him anymore. I have waited 13 long years to come to this city, and I will be damned if I spend my time trying to figure out a man who has a lock around his heart. This city is filled with men who will make the time for me, want to talk to me, and who knows maybe love is around the corner. I def miss him, and I think of him quite a bit, but I am not going to hold myself back for someone who doesn't even care for me. Seeing my parent's at their party reminded me of what real love looks like, and I am ready and excited for it!! 

ok I am seriously pooped now!!!

Night!! tommorow is my first day on the floor!!hope it goes well!!