Indian American Love Child

Life works in strange ways. Events happen all the time that test our faith and beliefs. As we grow older, we learn more but this knowledge doesn't always translate into more understanding . The saying 'ignorance is bliss' has never rung more true in my life.   I remember when I was younger, I used to speak with conviction. I could articulate my thoughts and feelings with utter ease. Life was mostly black and white. Things were either right or wrong. The areas of gray were far and few. Now, life seems like fifty shades of gray...and none of them are nearly as fun as the popular novel may suggest.   One area of gray I recently battled with...is the unfairness of life. Why do bad things happen to good people? I watched my patient and her family go through hell-  the family literally watched their loved one battle with death. I learned that my lovely coworker lost his young sister tragically. I found out that my patient passed away after a traumatic year in the hospita

Oh Happy Day!!! 2014 is most definitely my year!!! I didn't think I would get a position in critical care, and low and behold, I get to work in the neurocritical care ICU! I was slightly worried about my financial security, and now shortly I am going to be a homeowner!! I didn't think my heart was ever going to heal and feel love again, and guess what, I was wrong!!! So wrong!! I don't want to jinx anything, and I don't want to over excite myself, but all I can say is life works in very strange ways....sometimes happiness is literally right in front of your face! Happy Monday World!!!! Peace and Love always, Nandita

I really shouldn't be writing this. I have so much to do...I need to study, workout, clean, meet up with alex, answer a bunch of emails, fill out mortgage paperwork, and the list goes on. Even so, I want to document my thoughts while they are fresh in my head. This week I had my first experience working on the ICU floor, and it was intense! The first day on the unit was a whirlwind... my patient's BP wouldn't come up above 90/30! There were what seemed to be a million drips running, intermittent fluid boluses, new JP drain and ileostomy, hourly documentation of all events, etc... I could barely keep up. Not to mention I still had another patient! It is a completely different world up there. I walked out the first day thinking 'WHAT THE HELL DID I GET MYSELF INTO??' Needless to say, I was nervous about returning to the unit.   Thankfully, My second day was sooooo much better. I actually did really well, and learned so much. The patient was a 1 to 1 neurocritical