Indian American Love Child

Its almost 3am but I HAVE to blog about the most AMAZING concert I have ever been to in my life while it's fresh in my head. I think I died and went to musical heaven today. My inner thug rejoiced in Jay-Z lyrical genius. His delivery and presence flawless as always. Combine that with J-T's upbeat pop sound and smooth swag, it was truly an out of the world show. The show was light, and flowed seamlessly. Both artists took turns showcasing their most famous works and also came together to perform their many collaborations. Each set flowed right into each other. Jay Z played every single hit I wanted to hear from Big Pimpin to Run this Town to Hard Knock Life. Of the collaborations, I really liked 'Holy Grail'. The highlight of the show for me was the New York performance. JT opened with Frank Sinatra's version of 'New York, New York'. Jay Z followed with 'Empire State of Mind', and in the middle Alicia keys came out and sang her bit!! Yankee Stadium w

Things on my mind: 1. A toasted everything bagel with vegetable cream cheese. I can act like such a pregnant woman sometimes but honestly I went to bed hungry, and I woke up famished. So I managed to convince the office runner to go get one for me, reassuring him that it's the only way I will make it through the morning. 2. My PSEG bill. What the freak. I swear there is no way the bill could be that high for such a tiny apartment. Paying bills is no fun. I wish I could outsource this portion of my life :/ 3. Sleep. Worked at JFK last night, came home and couldn't fall asleep for the life of me. Woke up at 4:30 to go to the clinic. My bed is all I want!!

Last week was quite nice (until the weekend), I had the oppurtunities to catch up with darshak, guddi, and rushang. I received a bonus at the clinic, and I was asked to work extra shifts at both jobs so basically my September vacation is more than covered and I can throw it down guilt free! I worked out, brought a cute shirt, watched reruns of SATC, really it was a nice week until... The last two days have been mentally exhausting. Yera and I were home for the weekend, and because of yera's stupidity, we experienced every daughter's nightmare. Now my parents and I have a pretty open relationship. They are quite liberal and understanding about most things. They know we go out, that we date, that we drink, etc. But there are just some things you do not want your parents to know!!!! Besides the fact that it is terribly awkward, it something that they do not understand. My parents have raised us well, and I would never want to give them the impression that we are not living by th

Today starts my official man-cation. From July 10-Aug 10 I will abstain from any romantic interactions with any men. Can I just say, I feel amazing. It is like someone lifted this heavy load off my shoulders. These past few weeks I have tormented myself with questions of  "what do I want" , "who do I want", & "do they want me". All the questions are answered. I know who I want, what I want, and how they feel about me. That person can't offer me what I want and need at this time, and that's fine, if its meant to be it will be. I have come to the conclusion that I need to have a little more faith in God's plan for me. He has never failed me thus far, why would he fail me now?! I don't know who I am destined to end up with, and when they will come into my life (or if they are already there) but I am sure as hell not stressing about it anymore. My fairytale will happen, I just to let life and God work its magic :) So what I do have plann

I just found out a little over a week ago that I have a semester off from school. My work schedule is sporadic as always, but I will definitely have quite a bit of downtime. Normally, this free time would have me jumping with joy. Instead, I am almost dreading it because I am afraid. I am afraid of being alone. In 2009 I wrote about the importance of spending time alone. Fast Forward to 2013 and I have forgotten what it is like to be alone. The last two years (maybe more?) have been a non stop frenzy of dating. I cannot remember the last time my phone was not bombarded daily with messages from men trying to land a date, "be my friend", or try their luck at something more. Beside my phone, there hasn't been a time period longer than a month that did not involve a date of some sort. My quest to find love has left me exhausted, a little jaded, and more confused than I have ever been. I need some time alone to recoup, regroup, and figure out what it is that I am looking f