Indian American Love Child

Don't ever think I fell for you, or fell over you. I didn't fall in love, I rose in it. I saw you and made up my mind. Toni Morrison This beautiful quote has left me puzzled, and I've raked my mind, for some time now, to grasp the meaning. All my life, I thought you "fall in love" . Love was something that happened to you. It was a passive verb. My dating life mostly reflects this notion. I have let the combination of attraction and chemistry take the lead role, and when this dynamic duo is a little more extraordinary then the rest, I fall. Falling has it's perks. You can't wait to see him. The simplest things make you smile. The highs are comparable to those of any great drug. But the problem with falling is that you tend to overlook the unfavorable qualities of that person. Sometimes, you let yourself be given the short end of the stick, because your too busy falling. We think because we really like someone, and feel something undeniable for them, tha...

A Prayer for the Numb Slap me, I want to know it hurts. Kiss me, I want to feel the need. Tear me apart so I can finally feel broken, because right now all I feel is nothing. All I feel is nothing. Where did this stone of a heart come from? And who will take the time to break it? When will I finally let someone in? And will he likes what he sees? Will he like what he sees? Every night I say a prayer, A prayer for my heart to feel whole, A prayer for a sense of direction, A prayer for someone to touch my soul. Someone to touch my soul. -Nandita-

There has been a substantial amount of media coverage surrounding the rapes in Dehli. First, the young college woman raped violently by a group of men, and now the tragic case of a 5 year old child raped by two men and then left to die. The rapes themselves are disturbing and unsettling events, but the public's response to the rapes have been severely troubling as well. Yes, there has been some outcry of public outrage against the rapes, but there is still a great percentage of the population that have not come to terms with the severity of the crimes. Statements such as "Women who dress provocatively are asking to be raped" or "why does a woman need to walking around alone after 9pm?" are not uncommon. The "blame-the-woman" attitude is shared by both woman/men, rich /poor, and young/old. Below is an interesting article that delves deeper into the psyche of Indian men. http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2013/mar/24/india-rape-disturbing-attitudes-men ...

1. You will be understaffed. All the time. 2. Can the other nurse have the admission please??? 3. When your patient/ patient’s family genuinely thanks you for the care you have provided, it is one of the best feelings in the world 4. The break room is your diet’s worst enemy. Chocolate donuts anyone? 5. Men will constantly ask you to nurse them. And you will constantly fight the urge to punch them 6. Finding the hole on the first try warrants a celebratory dance. 7. Sometimes you learn more from your patients, then they will ever learn from you 8. Your hands will never look pretty. And you can’t decide if Purell is your friend or foe. 9. Disoriented elderly women give the best relationship advice 10. A little bit of Ativan never hurt anyone 11. There will be an hour when nobody needs you, and then three hours when everyone needs you 12. You never know when your shift will end….EVER. 13. Sometimes you will pray more for your patients than you do for your own f...

I thought 2011 was going to be horrible. I remember dreading the thought of going back to school full time, of not being able to have a life and time to do the things I enjoy, and having to study all the time. Little did I know that 2011 was going to be, maybe not the most enjoyable year of my life (2010 def holds that title thus far), but definitely the most monumental. For starters, I passed Nursing School! What a crazy journey that has been! When I started nursing school they told us that "Nursing is a Honor". I didn't get it. Today i realize what they meant. In my short span of clinicals i have had a couple of my patients look me in the eyes and thank me for my work. I have held the hand of man who was in his last days of life. I have sang shakira songs to my Spanish speaking older lady and made her smile. As a nurse, i have the honor of helping someone at their most vulnerable time, to help put someone at ease, and of course provide care so that I may help bring them...

6 month update....WHERE DO I BEGIN?????????? ok so i have broken some rules i set myself for this year, but i have also kept some important ones... 1. I passed my first semester of nursing school! I don't know if time flew or the semester was forever long but one thing was for sure it was def an interesting few months. I made some great friends...they are truly sweethearts, and they are def making the experience of being back in school more bearable! They are all crazy in their own way, but they are also so genuine, and kind hearted, and somehow we all seem to get each other...its a great dynamic! Nursing itself is a little overwhelming at times, it is so much information and skills to learn in such a short period of time..sometimes i think my brain is just swamped! Clinical are also a roller-coaster of emotions... sometimes they are rewarding but alot of times they are a pain in the ass, a shit ton of work, and exhausting! On wednesday i start my first pediatric rotation so that s...

2010 was an epic year. I set some goals for myself and accomplished all of them. I got into nursing school, worked for a year as a therapist in an amazing facility, passed a semester of classes, traveled, lost weight, took salsa classes, volunteered, and basically did whatever felt right at the time!So when it came to make goals for this year I was initially at a loss! What could i do to top last year? Well after some thought here is what I came up with! 1. I will not buy any non essential articles of clothing until atleast March 1st. This is in effort to teach to me some fiscal responsibility (lol i sound like a politician but i can't really come up with another word). I really need to instill better spending habits in myself, and more importantly better saving habits! 2. I will not act a fool- hahahahha I am not in college anymore and I should really stop partying like I am! Dance, spend quality time w/ friends, laugh, have fun, but do not act a fool! =) 3. Could try and lose ten...