Happy New Year!!
I thought 2011 was going to be horrible. I remember dreading the thought of going back to school full time, of not being able to have a life and time to do the things I enjoy, and having to study all the time. Little did I know that 2011 was going to be, maybe not the most enjoyable year of my life (2010 def holds that title thus far), but definitely the most monumental.
For starters, I passed Nursing School! What a crazy journey that has been! When I started nursing school they told us that "Nursing is a Honor". I didn't get it. Today i realize what they meant. In my short span of clinicals i have had a couple of my patients look me in the eyes and thank me for my work. I have held the hand of man who was in his last days of life. I have sang shakira songs to my Spanish speaking older lady and made her smile. As a nurse, i have the honor of helping someone at their most vulnerable time, to help put someone at ease, and of course provide care so that I may help bring them back to health. From my very first day at the nursing home I have been humbled by this profession, and i look forward to a long and fulfilling career. I can't help but think two years ago when I failed out of medical school how distressed and worried i was that i didn't know my calling, that i would never amount to anything, and that i would always fail....well let me tell I feel exactly the opposite now! I feel like the world is my oyster, and I can't wait to take it on!
I have to say Nursing School itself would have been a pretty crappy adventure without my awesome nursing girls. We laughed, we studied, we cried, we failed, and we passed together. And honestly these girls possess real compassion and empathy and they remind that there is good in this world. They truly are one of a kind, and I am so thankful to have met them, without their support I don't know where i would have been!
Apart from graduating, I did something else off my bucket list (well two things really but the other one is private!). I ran a 5k!! Now I know to most people that's really nothing but to me its quite the accomplishment! See i never even a ran a mile in my life. Those one mile runs we had to do in Middle and High school...yup walked that. I am literally just a fat lump that cannot run! But i changed that, and I trained, and I ran it! Plus I had a killer cold that day and I was still able to do it! The feeling i felt at the end was an out of this world high...to the point i started crying! It just goes to show that you can accomplish anything you put your heart to!
Finally, my love life. That thing i was supposed to sort out this year. Yeah, that didn't really happen. Really it was just a series of trial and error and trying new things with new people. There were some good times but also a substantial amount of heartache. But i did learn a lot of things, and I think I enter 2012 much wiser. First things first, I need to be me. I strayed away from my roots this year and tried to do and be someone that I am not. It left me feeling confused and unhappy. Besides who ever is going to like me they are going to like me for me. Take it or leave it. I also learned that I am not a player, and I don't like the game. Seriously everyone who is anyone in my life is a kind, loving, honest and genuine person...why would i want anything less from the man i wish to be with?!? If he wants to play games, or isn't in it for the right reasons, I have no place for that man in my life. Finally, I learned that a man will always go for a pretty face but the man that is willing to dig past that and search deeper is a man that I want to have in my life. Shiny things come and go, but something that is pure gold will never dull. But anyways despite all the failures, I truly have a good feeling for 2012 :)
2011 you have been great, but I am also happy to see you go. I am super excited for 2012 has in store for me. Landing a job, hopefully fulfilling a life long dream of moving to NYC, and maybe even finding true love. I have high hopes for 2012, and I am looking forward to an EPIC year!!
For starters, I passed Nursing School! What a crazy journey that has been! When I started nursing school they told us that "Nursing is a Honor". I didn't get it. Today i realize what they meant. In my short span of clinicals i have had a couple of my patients look me in the eyes and thank me for my work. I have held the hand of man who was in his last days of life. I have sang shakira songs to my Spanish speaking older lady and made her smile. As a nurse, i have the honor of helping someone at their most vulnerable time, to help put someone at ease, and of course provide care so that I may help bring them back to health. From my very first day at the nursing home I have been humbled by this profession, and i look forward to a long and fulfilling career. I can't help but think two years ago when I failed out of medical school how distressed and worried i was that i didn't know my calling, that i would never amount to anything, and that i would always fail....well let me tell I feel exactly the opposite now! I feel like the world is my oyster, and I can't wait to take it on!
I have to say Nursing School itself would have been a pretty crappy adventure without my awesome nursing girls. We laughed, we studied, we cried, we failed, and we passed together. And honestly these girls possess real compassion and empathy and they remind that there is good in this world. They truly are one of a kind, and I am so thankful to have met them, without their support I don't know where i would have been!
Apart from graduating, I did something else off my bucket list (well two things really but the other one is private!). I ran a 5k!! Now I know to most people that's really nothing but to me its quite the accomplishment! See i never even a ran a mile in my life. Those one mile runs we had to do in Middle and High school...yup walked that. I am literally just a fat lump that cannot run! But i changed that, and I trained, and I ran it! Plus I had a killer cold that day and I was still able to do it! The feeling i felt at the end was an out of this world high...to the point i started crying! It just goes to show that you can accomplish anything you put your heart to!
Finally, my love life. That thing i was supposed to sort out this year. Yeah, that didn't really happen. Really it was just a series of trial and error and trying new things with new people. There were some good times but also a substantial amount of heartache. But i did learn a lot of things, and I think I enter 2012 much wiser. First things first, I need to be me. I strayed away from my roots this year and tried to do and be someone that I am not. It left me feeling confused and unhappy. Besides who ever is going to like me they are going to like me for me. Take it or leave it. I also learned that I am not a player, and I don't like the game. Seriously everyone who is anyone in my life is a kind, loving, honest and genuine person...why would i want anything less from the man i wish to be with?!? If he wants to play games, or isn't in it for the right reasons, I have no place for that man in my life. Finally, I learned that a man will always go for a pretty face but the man that is willing to dig past that and search deeper is a man that I want to have in my life. Shiny things come and go, but something that is pure gold will never dull. But anyways despite all the failures, I truly have a good feeling for 2012 :)
2011 you have been great, but I am also happy to see you go. I am super excited for 2012 has in store for me. Landing a job, hopefully fulfilling a life long dream of moving to NYC, and maybe even finding true love. I have high hopes for 2012, and I am looking forward to an EPIC year!!
Amen :)
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