Nandita 3.0

Feeling kinda awesome right now, and I want to document my thoughts so that in two months when I go in to typical girl crisis mode about turning 30, I can look back on this and (hopefully) snap out of it. 

1. Yesterday for the first time EVER, I made a lump sized extra payment towards my student loan! It was such an amazing feeling to make that payment, WITHOUT stressing my bank account. I still remember the first couple of years working as a nurse, building a savings without compromising my wants/lifestyle was just not possible (and I didn't even have all my wants). And now...and now I literally feel like I am living my dream. I pretty much have all my wants, and I still get to build a savings in the bank. I have a financial plan that I am super excited about it. I have a house, a car, savings...everything for a secure future! I can go to bed not having any financial worries (could not say that 3 years ago!). I may not be rolling in dough, but 30 is looking pretty financially flllyyyyy :)

2. I have been wearing less and less makeup to work, and then the other day I finally wore none. NONE. Not powder, not mascara, no lipstick, not eyeliner, NOTHING. And guess what, I didn't look that bad. But moreover, I didn't care...and not in the "I have given up on looking good or put together kind of way" but more in the "I am comfortable in my own skin kinda way". I actually looked in the mirror and thought to myself "I actually look nice, definitely not my best, but nice". Hell my coworkers actually independently complimented me saying I look beautiful without makeup, which honestly made my day. This is such a crazy departure from the younger me who was so hyper aware of every pimple and acne scar. Who almost never left the house without makeup, or at the very least, a coat of powder. It feels amazing to feel pretty without 10 layers on my face. Of course, so much has changed from my younger days... My diet has improved, lifestyle (no more night shift!), and money to get some nicer skin products if I want (still keeping it pretty basic while I am youngish  though lol). If this is 30, I can get used to it.

3. Other things that have seemed to have improved...my response to stress, my body image (still a work in progress, but a 1000x better than even 5 years ago), my lifestyle choices (still love cake and hookah but much more in moderation), my approach to relationships both family and romantic, honestly I think almost everything has gotten better with age!!!

People say I wish I could back to high school or college  or whatever. Hell no, I would not go back to that time (only exception to time travel would be 23 and 24, those years were just hella fun)! As arrogant as it sounds, I really feel like I have aged like fine wine, and things just keep getting better and better. If God didn't put this stupid biological clock stamp on women, I would honestly say I entering my prime. I feel like I am coming into my best self. More confident, wiser, smarter...just UPGRADED.  

Nandita 3.0 

I am ready for you :)

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