2013: A year in Review

I can not believe 2013 is coming to an end. To be honest, it feels like a bit of a blur. Not only was it incredibly eventful, it was tumultuous. The good times were really damn good, and the bad times were pretty bad. The roller coaster of highs and lows were quite taxing, and for that reason, I am happy to see this year pass. Even though it wasn't my best year, it was a very important year. I have done so much growing, and self reflecting, and learning. I am emerging a different person... new and improved!

The following are my year's highlights- good and bad:

The most fun parts of my year were all my travels:
 1. Philly: the RU crew paints the town. booty bumping to classics, an amazing brunch at cuba libra, and sightseeing while dying of a cold -all added up to a great trip

2.Charlotte: checking out the "dirty south" with my brothers. First time shooting a gun and going to a rodeo! Good times grubbing, bonding, and chilling.

3.London & Paris: sightseeing in cold and dreary London, pubbing with the parental units, meeting mom's family. honestly, London is not my favorite city, but it was awesome checking it out nonetheless. Paris was beautiful! Lunch in the Eiffel tower, lol almost getting left behind, and the river cruise. Finally, perhaps my highlight- the harry potter platform!

4.Staycation in NYC:  Rose, sofi, and Jasmine are in town! epic times! central park, booty bumping all around town, good eats...I literally felt like I was on vacay with them.

5.Boston: I got to see Boston in a whole new light. It really is so different in the summer time! It was nice hanging out with rosh, and chilling out. And course, it was nice seeing someone else as well, but that didn't end so well

6.Miami: fara's bachelorette party! lol literally started out an epic mess the night before- complete with missing my flight...hanging out with "R" and it getting a little out of hand! Miami was awesome though... the girls were incredibly sweet and etched my name in the sand the night of my bday. My personal favorite part of the trip was nikki beach!!! An amazing time!!

7. D.C.: the city was shutdown so didn't really get to do any sight seeing, but had a fun time hanging out with rossies anyway.

8.Outerbanks, NC: Had a fabulous time with the fam! hot tub, good convo, cat puzzles, grub, beach side walks, lots of cuba libras, really just an utterly relaxing week

Other major highlights include:

1. Jay Z/ JT concert- amazzzzzziiinggg
2. Rihanna concert- she is not just incredibly talented, but also extremely hot #girlcrush
3. Giants/ Eagles Game :tail gating, family time, plus a giant's win makes for a great day!

Health concerns among my family were both scary and eye opening. Thankfully, everyone is ok, but I continue to pray for my family's health and safety every night. The events with my uncle and mom made me realize I need to adopt to some lifestyle changes, and though bad habits can be bad to break, I am actively trying to live a healthier life.

My love life was perhaps what changed me the most this year. The year started out with "N". I really liked N. He was the first guy I opened myself up to in a long time. I made myself vulnerable, and let myself fall for him. Unfortunately, faith had a different plan. First, I rushed things and pressured him to offer me something he probably wasn't ready to give. Second, we had a horrible, awkward situation happen to us twice! Third, he had to move away from NY for a new job. Fourth, I was pretty damn dumb and couldn't recognize that he nothing to offer me. Truth is, I spent the whole year continuing to talk to him for god knows what reason. Probably hoping that we could work out again. But upon review of the facts: not only is he someone I should not be dating, he is also not even capable of being a quality friend. He only reaches out when its convenient for him, and really, to mostly talk about himself. He doesn't know much about my life, and probably wouldn't be there for me if I needed him. Hell, he won't even add me on facebook. lol, who is friends in real life, but not on facebook? For real, I am done. I want a real man. Not a cheap, immature, and self-centered liar. And he is a liar, I have caught him lie before, I just never called him out on it (#Iamstupid). And lets not forget to mention that he is a thirty year old man who is unable pick the phone and call, make plans and follow through,  and really has no idea what he wants in terms of a relationship. But even after all of this, I am not mad at him. He is who he is. I am upset with myself. I put up with all that crap, and stuck around because I didn't value myself. He is the last man I will ever let that behavior slide with. The new nandita recognizes her worth, and finally understands what she deserves.

The year later continued with "S". A short fling fueled mostly by physical attraction. What I learned from this.. bad boys are exciting for a little bit, but there is no long term potential there, and its best not to treat it that way. Regardless, it was fun and really he was super nice so no harm.

Finally, there was "P". Unfortunately, I never gave "P" a chance, because I was stuck on "N".
P was pretty awesome. Gentlemen, smart, easy going, and down to try new things. In ways he was similar to N. He was also a lawyer, and very much a man's man. Beer, baseball, bro kinda dude. I think the similarity scared me on some level. The only real issue I had with "P"  was I wasn't as attracted to him like I was for N, I kinda thought his friends were lame, and he wasn't really aggressive (he didn't even try and kiss me- which is respectful, I guess). Basically, P is the type of dude I need. I am little too scared to reach out, but regardless lesson learned, and at least I will be able to recognize a good thing when I see it next.

Finally, school is coming along, working is going pretty smoothly, and hoepfully this new position works out in the CCU. If not, I am legimately thinking of moving to Miami. Every since I came back in september, I can't help but thinking about it. And i put in my three weeks at methadone, which is so liberating!!!! Life is good, if not very good, on that frontier. Usually, Every year I make resolutions, but this year I don't feel compelled to. I am looking forward to letting life run its course, whatever that may be. 2013 peace out, 2014 bring it on!