Prayers. and lots of them!

So much going on!
 
Couple weeks back, We found out Dharmendra mama was in hospital after suffering from a clot that traveled to his lungs. Thankfully, he is ok and potential serious complications were evaded. The episode was unsettling because it seems like there is a coagulation problem that runs in our family. Dadaji passed away of unknown causes when he was young. Then mummy, and now Dharmendra mama. Yera and I have to go for a coagulation test at some point. After hearing the news, I am actively trying to lead a healthier life. Working out, eating right, no hookah, etc. because if you don't have your health, you have nothing. Thankfully, my mom and uncle are ok and doing well. We will just take this as a wake up call, and maintain a cleaner bill of health. *Also, Satish Kaki suffered a heart attack two weeks ago, and had to go in for surgery. Then his surgical wound got infected, and he had to go for repair surgery. Everything seems to be, and he is in our house for 6 weeks for his IV antibiotic therapy. Basically, lots of prayers for my family and their health!
 
Career wise: I passed my ACLS class! It felt amazing to complete the course successfully even when I have a basic cardiac background. I am still in the process of following up with the CCU position. The application process is far more intensive than I anticipated, but I am praying that I get it. I am also about to put in my three week notice at the clinic. It's time to move on- for many reasons. This new year brings about many changes in my career, and schedule. I am basically quitting one job without a solid offer at another! A little nervous about all the change, but I am sure it will work out.
 
School wise: The last couple weeks of the semester were grueling!!! Good lord, papers galore! But thankfully, I am done, and fingers crossed I pass with A's. The stupid school has made me very upset though. I found out a couple of weeks ago that I still have to take a humanities course. Like seriously, a humanities course of all things??? I have been trying to fight it, and provide evidence from Rutgers to TESC with no avail. So now I have to take a semester off, and test out of the stupid humanities course before I continue taking my nursing courses. I am annoyed because it pushes my graduation date back by a semester.... and another reason....
 
So, of course, we get to my favorite part (#sarcasm)...my love life! Actually, I don't even know why I refer to it as my love life, there is no love there :\ But anyways, when I found out about my semester off, the second thought I had was: now I have no excuse to not date. The last couple of months, my desire to date has steadily been on the decline.I want love and marriage and all those good things but I have no desire to put in any effort for it. Actually, the very thought of going on a date is so depressing to me. My shaadi career has been a fail. 50% because most of these guys do not know what they want, and 50% because I can't be bothered. Truth is, I am smarter and wiser, but also a little jaded. I have no patience for guys who behave like teenage boys, don't follow up, and generally speaking, waste my time. My standards have increased, my interest level has declined...lol it makes for a bad combo. Despite all that, I have decided to let all inhibitions go, and just live my life. I am far too intelligent, accomplished, funny, pretty to spend my days stressing about not having anyone.  #yolo
 
Despite my dismal dating life, I have been thinking about someone quite a bit recently. Actually, for almost two months. I keep thinking about reaching out, but I want to be 100% sure I am ready to try something again. When I met him, I was a confused idiot, and couldn't recognize a great guy when I saw him. But more than being great, he is great for me. We really had a lot in common. He was easy going, and so down to try new things, he even tried salsa dancing! I don't know if he is dating anyone, or even would be willing to give me another try, but I am really would like another opportunity.
 
Anyways, In summary, my life can be summarized by prayers. Prayers for my family, friends, and myself!!! 
 
:)
 
PS. Yera got into NYU DPT program!!! I am so proud of her! She is killing it!!!

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