Indian American Love Child

I had to make some difficult decisions the past couple of weeks about everything from my career and residence to my relationship. After a lot of soul searching, and a pretty tough conversation with S, I decided I am going to leave California and move back to the East coast. When the pain of the S situation subsided a little, a whole new kind of sadness set in. I didn't realize how much I have fallen in love with San Diego. My heart literally hurts when I think of leaving. This totally boggles me. I spent the last nine months enjoying myself out here, but not without serious bouts of missing NYC/home. And now, I have the opportunity to leave and move to NYC, a city I have dreamed about living in since I was a teenager, and I am still not happy. Even the thought of being closer to my friends and family, who i spent the last 10 months missing isn't making me happier. When I was trying to independently decide whether to stay in SD or not, I couldn't tell if I liked SD becau...

God, I seriously hate being a woman sometimes. For starters, it is a crap ton of work. Just the other day, I literally spent 8 hours behind hair management alone! Waxing, coloring, shaving, trimming... I mean, what an ordeal! But worse than any female physical maintenance is the emotions and thoughts that come along with being a female. After to talking to many a men and woman on a very personal level over the years, I am going to go ahead and make the safe assumption that is pretty much a female problem. Men surely have emotions/thoughts but not to the extent that women do. And I seriously envy that.  This past weekend was a prime example of emotion/thought overload. I had one freaking weekend alone, and it threw my mind into hyper drive. First I was bored. Then I was sad because so many of my friends had left. Then I was mad because I felt like I was waiting on someone. Then I was happy because I did end up meeting up with my some of my friends. Then I was bored and sad a...

I am going to preface this post by saying it is hella loud where I am at, and I can barely hear my own thoughts, yet alone put them into coherent sentences. Nevertheless, I feel the need to write, and I just feel like I have so many emotions/moments to chronicle. Anyways, where do I start?! I guess I will start with work! Next week ends my first travel assignment! I honestly do not know where seven months have gone! It feels like yesterday I was sitting in orientation learning about snake bite protocols! Nervous, excited, unsure about the next couple of months would have in store for me...I never expected this. Nursing in California, or in particular Palomar Medical Center, has really given me insight into what nursing practice should really be like. Patient ratios, lift teams, resource nurses, and so many other resources make nursing not only way more manageable (far less burn out), but more importantly, so much safer! The acuity at Palomar was a little bit less than what I a...

The world just learned of terrorist attacks in Belgium- three explosions in major metro hubs of Brussels. Though it is too soon to say for sure, news sources are saying it is in retaliation for the arrest of Salah Abdeslam, a man associated with the Paris attacks. Now I won't pretend to know the intricacies associated with this attack or the one in Paris, but I will say the little I do know, hurts my heart and saddens me to my core.  I think working as a nurse has made me somewhat immune to the culture of fear. I see horrible things unexpectedly happen to people everyday, and it has taught me that no matter how carefully you live your life, whatever is meant to happen, will. And so for that reason, I won't let fear of what ifs dictate my life. But that's not how most people live, and respectfully so. It is very disheartening to know that there will people afraid to ride the metro to work from now on. Or to let their kids hang out with friends of  a certain race or...

I just got back from Capital Hill last week, where I got to attend this amazing program called NIWI or Nurse In Washington Internship. The primary focus of the internship was to help nurses better understand the legislative process, and how nurses can use this process to invoke policy change on both a state and national level. It was a fascinating program from which I learned a great deal. But I think what I enjoyed the most, was meeting so many amazing nurses from all around the country. Nurses who had enough initials behind their name to form a small sentence. Nurses on the boards of some huge nursing organizations, and passionately represented their respective specialties. Nurses who had ventured outside the realm of traditional nursing and gone into politics, business, law, etc. It was the most professionally inspiring experience I have had in a long time! I thoroughly enjoyed every second of it, and I left the program having a clearer idea of what I needed to do to achieve my fut...

The other day Yera sent me a link to the new Coldplay/Beyonce Music Video. Personally, I am a fan of the song "Hymn for the Weekend", though I have to admit as much as I love my girl Beyonce, I am not really sure she adds much to the song. The collaboration must have been mostly for the upcoming Superbowl? But anyways, I watched the music video, and can honestly say, I much enjoyed it. The video is shot in India, and I thought the imagery was beautiful. I did not think for one second that anything about the video was insulting or demeaning. Actually, I didn't give the video a second thought until I read a NPR article examining the video under the broader context of cultural appropriation. Theft and Artistry: Coldplay, Beyonce in India Spark Discussion on Appropriation Truthfully, I had never even heard of the term cultural appropriation until this article. After reading quite a few articles on it, I learned that cultural appropriation general...

Multiple terrorist attacks have happened in various countries across the globe in the past couple of months. From Mali to France, news of death, hostages, bombs, and just general devastation have flooded our social media, news, and conversations. I am ashamed to admit it, but I have turned my head to all of it.  I live in a world, I don't understand.  For the longest time, and maybe even now, I was okay with the ignorance is bliss motion. It served me well since I was able to maintain my naive perception of the world. Anyone who knows me, knows I hate watching the news. I feel as if there is never anything positive on, and furthermore, I feel the more we watch it, the more paranoid we get about the world around us. The last thing I want to do is go through life thinking everyone has an alternative agenda, and is out to get me. I'd like to think that most people are innately good, and that there are just some rotten tomatoes among us. Of course, I do not have children...