30 days and 30 Nights

The Miami countdown begins. t-1month. It is strange to think that in 1 month i will be in a foreign city on my own. This will be my first time away from my friends, my family, and my sister for an extended period of time. I mean I dormed for one year during college, but that doesn't really count considering i lived in Newark and was able to come home pretty much whenever. I am not really looking forward to moving away too much. People think I am strange. What you don't want to move out of the house already? Aren't you ready to get away they ask. And honestly my answer is No. To me, home is my sanctuary. When i have a rough day, or things just aren't going well... home is where i find peace. It is the once place that I know I am loved unconditionally. There are no pretenses, no reservations, just unadulterated love and support. I will miss that comfort the most. Sure some days i need a break, or i say i can't wait to leave. But I don't really mean it, Home is where the heart is, and my heart will always be with the ones I love. Leaving my parents, my sister, my close friends will probably be the hardest thing i do to date. I will survive, I am sure. I will adjust, because i must. I just hope that when the going gets tough down there, I find a way to cope.

Besides that I am almost set to go. I registered for classes. My loans are pretty much processed and approved. Apartment is pretty much taken care of. Flight is booked. Books are brought. Roommate secured. Things are def set into motion for August. I am just taking care of emotional me. I have to say bye to my best friend next week which will not be fun at all. And two weeks after that a whole other set of goodbyes. =/

I am happy to start this new journey, and to start making my dream of becoming a doctor a reality, but I am not happy with the goodbyes. Goodbyes are never fun .

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